YouTuber Nikki Lilly: ‘Ugly is such a thrown-around phrase’

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Media captionNikki Lilly spoke to Chloe Tilley on Victoria Derbyshire in regards to the highs and lows of being a YouTube star


YouTube star Nikki Lilly, 15, has already interviewed a primary minister, gained Junior Bake Off and pulled off a ukulele rendition of Right here Comes the Solar that will have made George Harrison proud.

Now she is being formally recognised at subsequent month’s British Academy Youngsters’s Awards, the place she is going to turn into the youngest ever recipient of a Bafta Particular Award.


So it should take quite a lot of web trolls labelling her “ugly” to smash her day.

Confidence increase

On the age of six, the presenter was identified with an arteriovenous malformation – a life-threatening medical situation, which started to have an effect on her look and trigger extreme well being points.

Two years later, as a means of dealing with the sudden modifications, she started to publish movies of herself up on YouTube. Initially she had the feedback part switched off and located making the movies actually helped to spice up her confidence.

Now seven years on, a couple of million followers usually watch her give make-up classes, discuss cyber bullying and usually lark about along with her household, like an “common teenager”.

Nikki, who has undergone greater than 40 operations, says she’s realized quite a bit about herself and different folks too alongside the best way.

“As quickly as you set your self on-line you are exposing your self to the entire world,” she advised BBC Two’s Victoria Derbyshire present on Thursday. “So you will get the positives with the negatives.

“Even probably the most lovely lady or man on the earth is at all times going to get one thing.

“I feel once I first began it was plenty of ‘you are ugly’ – ugly is simply such a thrown-around phrase.”

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Bake Off champions: Nadiya Hussain and Nikki Lilly

She added: “Again then it could get to me much more as a result of my confidence was quite a bit decrease than it’s now, and it has been constructed up by doing movies.

“I get it so usually that it is simply one thing I’ve turn into proof against virtually. That is to not say that it does not get to me [but] I feel I’ve realised that the folks commenting horrible issues – it is way more about them than it’s you.

“It is fairly unhappy and cowardly that they really feel the necessity to publish horrible issues to another person as a result of they’re so unhappy of their life and so they assume ‘oh if I am imply to this particular person then hopefully I will really feel higher about myself, and my life that I am sad in’.”

Her TV profession started in 2016 when she was topped the winner of CBBC’s Junior Bake Off, and in the identical yr she was awarded the Youngster of Braveness award on the Pleasure of Britain Awards.

Since 2018 she has been presenting her personal CBBC present Nikki Lilly Meets… interviewing influential figures such because the then prime minister Theresa Might and Labour chief Jeremy Corbyn.

‘Necessary to be your self’

Bafta has stated her upcoming gong, which has beforehand gone to the likes of Jacqueline Wilson, Peter Firmin, Newsround and the Chuckle Brothers, is the very best honour on the Youngsters’s Awards.

The YouTuber and campaigner admitted she is “so, so enthusiastic about working with Bafta”.

Helen Blakeman, chair of the Bafta kids’s committee, believes Nikki is “a pioneer for her technology”.

“I’m so happy to see Nikki’s work and her excellent bravery and the hopeful message she has unfold to so many different younger folks, to be recognised on this means,” she stated in a press release.

Nikki has twice been the topic of CBBC’s My Life documentaries; First in 2016 with Born to Vlog, which was Bafta-nominated and gained an Worldwide Emmy Youngsters award, and once more in 2018 with I Will Survive.

Whereas she makes use of her vlogging platform to unfold “constructive messages”, she’s additionally conscious about the social pressures and trappings that come together with websites like YouTube, Instagram and Twitter too, in addition to the great things.

“Though I look totally different I’ve not tried to vary myself,” she defined.

“We reside on this airbrushed world at present on social media, and youngsters are at all times subjected to shiny photographs of what they assume actuality is like, and social media is not actuality.

“I feel it is so essential to be your self as a result of why must you match this mould of how you ought to be, or how it’s best to act, or how it’s best to look?

“Everyone seems to be totally different and everybody is exclusive and if we lived in a world the place everybody seemed the identical and acted the identical and everybody had the identical likes, it could be a very boring world.”

The British Academy Youngsters’s Awards ceremony takes place on Sunday 1 December at The Brewery, London.

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