‘We failed to achieve Europe – now our households disown us’

Jamilatu and Fatmata

Many of the West African migrants who fail to achieve Europe finally return to their very own nations, however it may be a bitter homecoming. In Sierra Leone, returnees are sometimes rejected by family members and pals. They’re seen as failures, and plenty of stole from their households to pay for his or her journey.

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Fatmata breaks into sobs when she remembers the six months she spent in slavery because the “spouse” of a Tuareg nomad who seized her within the Sahara desert.


“They name him Ahmed. He was so enormous and so depraved,” she says. “He stated, ‘You’re a slave, you’re black. You persons are from hell.’ He informed me when anyone has a slave, you are able to do no matter you need to do. Not solely him. Typically he would inform his good friend, ‘You’ll be able to have a style of something inside my home.’ They tortured me on daily basis.”

That was solely the start of the horrors Fatmata, aged 28, from Freetown, Sierra Leone, skilled as she tried to cross West Africa to the Mediterranean. She finally escaped from Ahmed, however was recaptured by traffickers who held her in their very own personal jail in Algeria.


After she and different migrants broke out, Fatmata, deeply traumatised, determined to desert her desires of a brand new life in Europe – and return to the place she began. She utilized to an intergovernmental company, the Worldwide Organisation for Migration (IOM), which pays the fares for migrants who need to return dwelling.

Final December, she arrived again in Freetown, by bus from Mali – after practically two years away. However there have been no emotional reunions, no welcomes, no embraces. Almost a yr later, Fatmata hasn’t even seen her mom – or the daughter, now eight, she left behind.

“I used to be so blissful to return again,” she says. “However I want I had not.”

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When she received again, she referred to as her brother. However his response terrified her. “He informed me, ‘You shouldn’t even have come dwelling. It is best to simply die the place you went, since you did not deliver something again dwelling.'”

After that, she says, “I did not have the center to go and see my mom.”

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Fatmata thought she’d have the ability to pay again the cash she stole

However her household did not reject her simply because she was a failure. It was additionally due to how she funded her journey.

She stole 25 million leones – about US $2,600 at right this moment’s change fee, however then value much more – from her aunt. It was cash her aunt had given her to purchase garments, that might then be resold as a part of her buying and selling enterprise. Her aunt often trusted her in that method.

“I used to be solely pondering tips on how to get the cash and go,” Fatmata says, although she provides that she’s not a egocentric individual. “If I had succeeded in going to Europe, I made a decision that I might triple the cash, I might take excellent care of my aunt and my mum.”

However Fatmata’s aunt’s enterprise by no means recovered from the lack of the cash. And – to make issues even worse – the theft has precipitated a rift between the aunt and her sister, Fatmata’s mom, whom she falsely accuses of being in on Fatmata’s plan.

“I am in ache, critical ache!” her mom says, after I go to her. “The day I set eyes on Fatmata, she is going to find yourself within the police station – and I’ll die.”

It is a story that is repeated within the households of lots of the three,000 or so Sierra Leoneans who’ve returned within the final two years after failing to achieve Europe.

At one time, family members usually raised the cash to ship somebody, however there’s much less willingness to try this now that tales of imprisonment and loss of life alongside the route have multiplied. Now, many would-be migrants hold their plans secret, and take no matter cash they’ll, typically even promoting the title deeds to the household land.

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Jamilatu stole cash which had been lent to her mom

On the headquarters of the Advocacy Community In opposition to Unlawful Migration, a voluntary group that helps returned migrants rebuild their lives, all of the returnees I meet have stolen from their households.

Jamilatu, aged 21, who escaped with Fatmata from the traffickers’ jail in Algeria, took a plastic bag of money value $three,500 from her mom’s room when she was out of the home. The cash did not even belong to her mom. It had all been lent to her by neighbours, as a part of a microcredit scheme.

After Jamilatu left, the livid collectors besieged her mom’s home, threatening to kill her if she did not return the cash. She was pressured to flee Freetown for Bo, three hours away within the south of the nation, leaving her three different kids behind with their father.

“My mum would not need to discuss to me, due to the cash,” Jamilatu says. “So since I got here again, I have never seen her. And I need to see my mum – it is over two years now that I am not seeing her.”

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Jamilatu has been estranged from her mom for greater than two years

I go to her mom, Maryatu, at her new dwelling in Bo, and after an extended dialog she says she wish to see Jamilatu once more, regardless of the struggling she’s precipitated.

However after they meet, quickly afterwards, it is a brief, awkward and nearly silent reunion. They embrace stiffly. Then Jamilatu kneels in entrance of her, asking for forgiveness. Neither appears the opposite within the eye.

Afterwards, Jamilatu goes straight again to Freetown.

“I’m the happiest lady on Earth right this moment as a result of I’ve seen my mum,” she says. However she would not look blissful. Her mom has informed her they can not dwell underneath the identical roof once more till Jamilatu has raised the cash to repay the collectors.

It is onerous to see how that might be attainable. Jamilatu, like Fatmata, has no job. They each rely on assist from Advocacy Community In opposition to Unlawful Migration. The group was based by Sheku Bangura, himself a returned migrant, who lobbies the Sierra Leonean authorities to do extra for returnees – presently there’s little or no official assist – and tries to offer sensible assist himself. He finds lodging for individuals who are homeless, intervenes with the police if returnees get into bother, and organises primary psychological counselling.

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Sheku Bangura has private expertise of the challenges confronted by returnees

“I’ve had loads of migrants who’ve psychological issues,” he says. “These younger folks, they’re on the streets, they do not have place to sleep. It is not likely straightforward for them.”

A kind of serving to out on the Advocacy Community is 31-year-old Alimamy, who set out throughout the Sahara three years in the past, after stealing and promoting an costly water-packaging machine belonging to his uncle.

Certainly one of his two travelling companions died of hunger within the desert. The second drowned making an attempt to cross the Mediterranean in a dinghy. Alimamy ended up in a Libyan detention camp. He was solely rescued in November 2017 when the IOM started organising flights from Tripoli to West Africa for individuals who needed to go dwelling.

Emaciated and exhausted, he accepted the supply of a ticket, however he was frightened of the reception he would get. “I used to be pondering I mustn’t come again to Sierra Leone, as a result of I do know my uncle has a really excessive mood,” he says.

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Alimamy’s try to achieve Europe resulted in a Libyan migration detention centre

Since returning, Alimamy has lived with pals. His elder brother, Sheik Umar, a former skilled footballer, says: “We’re listening to he’s in Freetown, he’s struggling. And but he hasn’t received the center to face any of us within the household.”

Sheik Umar says he was once near his brother, but when he sees him now, he’ll guarantee he’s “arrested, prosecuted and convicted”.

“If he dies in jail, I cannot have any regrets, I’m positive no members of the family can have remorse, due to the disgrace he has placed on all of us.”

He says the water-packaging enterprise Alimamy had been entrusted to run by his uncle may have generated sufficient cash to assist the entire household.

“However he misused that chance and all of us are on this mess now… Wherever I am going now, folks taunt me. Our mom is sick, she has moved to a village. That (enterprise) was the start of our hopes. However Alimamy has shattered all of that.”

Alimamy himself is indignant and annoyed. “I’ve come again dwelling, no influence, similar to I am zero,” he says. “The place the place I’m residing, it is like a hell for me. The way in which folks take a look at me, I do not really feel blissful. They’re me like I am not human.”

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Sheik Umar says his household has suffered on account of Alimamy’s actions

The IOM provides migrants who return voluntarily to their dwelling nations in Africa “re-integration allowances” value as much as 1,500 euros (£1,270). The cash comes from a 347m-euro fund financed primarily by the European Union. However the allowances aren’t paid in money. In the event that they have been, most individuals would simply use them to repay their family members. So the IOM pays for items or providers that candidates can show they should arrange a selected enterprise.

Alimamy received an allowance to purchase a bike to hire out to different drivers to make use of as a taxi. However after simply 4 months, one of many drivers went off with it and by no means got here again. Alimamy himself had turn into a sufferer of theft.

As for Fatmata and Jamilatu, they by no means acquired an allowance as a result of they returned from Mali at a time when another Sierra Leoneans have been abusing the system by catching a bus to Mali, pretending they’d returned from throughout the Sahara, and claiming the allowance. So everybody getting back from Mali misplaced out, together with Fatmata and Jamilatu.

Now, all three returnees participate in “awareness-raising” occasions organised by the Advocacy Community. They exit on the streets with placards and loudspeakers to warn different younger folks of the hazards of unlawful migration, and urge them to remain in “candy Sierra Leone”.

However for them, house is not candy. All three are consumed by emotions of worthlessness.

Fatmata says: “I’ve nothing to supply, I’ve nothing to indicate. I can not even go and see my daughter, I solely see the photographs, as a result of I’ve nothing to offer her after I get there, so I can not.”

Alimamy says the “stigmatisation” he suffers is forcing him to do the other of what he says on the streets. He desires to make one other try to achieve Europe.

“Staying right here is sort of a hell for me,” he says. I remind him of the horrors he skilled on his first try, being enslaved, imprisoned, and seeing pals die.

“Properly,” he says, “I’ve been by that, and I am positive I may cope.”

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